Hello Everyone, I am new here and I will do my best to be a great friend. I love our Heavenly Father very much, I do enjoy listening to others for I have Heart and do carry my feelings on my shoulder. I will try to help others as much as I can. I have a few problems like, Lupus, borderline diabetic, ulcer, 2 rods6 screws in my lower back caused of disc detergerative disease. All of the medicine I take has ruined my teeth so bad that I don't even smile like I use to anymore. I am not really happy in the marriage I'm in cause, when I try to talk with him he gets all defense and really insecure. I feel that a husband is to take really care of his wife, when I get really sick, I have to take myself to the doctor regardless how I feel. I'm very lonely here for all my family and friends live 6 hours from where I am. I stay to myself . My husband thinks of his self more than me. Oh I'm not trying to put him down or start any trouble.( I have to talk with someone) My grandmother raised me when I was a baby for my parents didnt' want me.( Bless her heart, she passed away2005 of cancer) we we're really close. I miss her so much for she was really easy to talk to and very caring. I'm not selfish, or try not to be. I was taught that your husband should put your wife before yourself. but that's not the case. As long as I wait on him everything is fine. I'm not at all bad looking, but my husband don't compliment me on how I look, or anything. I'm not self centered about me at all. My teeth are bad, and is jeoperdising my health and my husband is saving his money for retirement and not concerned about my teeth. I don't love him like I should for he broke that for me. I need assisstance getting all my teeth out and cut out too but I dont have $ 4000.00 to get them fixed. All I do is pray for God will help me, he always will. Sometimes I close my eyes and feel god's arms around me, saying I Love You My Child. That is the only love that I recieve but you know that's the best love anyone can experience. Hubby tells me, I don't like to be alone. we don't hold hands.(or cuddle). I am a very afffectionite person. As long as I have God, I know I will be alright. I love being around other people. So if you have a problem, please talk with me, for I will listen and try to help when I can. I treat people the way I want to be treated, with honesty, respect and lots of caring and love. I don't judge people, for that is God's job, but being human we try but then I apologize to our Heavenly Father and ask for forgiveness with a sincere heart and he will. Our heavenly Father will never leave us comfortless.
I look forward to hearing from you all and have a blessed day and also an early "HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY"!
